Adele! Talented Can Be Overweight Too!

Keeping My Fat A Secret

Recently I was talking on the phone to a man who was a college friend. He lives in Idaho and I live in Texas. We started talking about seeing each other in a couple of months and thinking that perhaps we might be able to build a relationship. It ended up not working out however...


I didn't tell him that I gained weight and I wasn't the same size I was in college. I felt pathetic. Since I couldn't be real then I wasn't fully myself which is a terrible fruitless way to live.


I don't want to live that way.

Money Does Grow On Trees!

RevFit is a big believer in positive thinking. Mariah said in the movie, Inception it dealt with being focused in positivity. I tried to watch it online but it wasn't downloading quick enough. All I got was that your in a dream and then your not...so more on that later.

However, I'm ROCKING the positive (see, instead of trying to rock the positive)...I need to pay for RevFit and then I can start. It's a little slow on that end since I need to pay a huge chunk for my car insurance.

Money does grow on trees, money does grow on trees, money comes to me easily and frequently...

Workin' on my mantra! Hope you're having a scootin' tootin' Thursday!

Happy Veteran's Day!

Burning Ships!

Revelation Fit uses the term 'Ship Burning' affectionately to get the process of no way out, no desertion from your goals into their client's mind so that we understand we have only one way out...so you may be raw and embarrassed but it's going to help you climb out from the abyss from where you are now stuck.

Mariah mentioned the book/movie, The Hunt for Red October where a similar provoking thought Captain Ramius uses to steer his Russian crew and submarine. They were going to defect from Russia but instead of sneaking away, the captain uses the story of the Spaniard Captain Cortes. He led his hundreds of soldiers and crew into Mexico on a treasure hunting expedition. Cortes' goal was to never return but to stay and build a society however, he knew if they had a way out, a possibility to fail then his plan would be ruined. Cortes ordered the eleven ships that allowed them safe passage from their home to be burned; the fact that he was willing to die in this endeavor showed his resolve.

In The Hunt for Red October, Captain Ramius wrote to Russia to explain that he and his officers were defecting so that there wasn't any chance of changing their mind. This is where the movie becomes exciting because then the Russians order a death threat on the submarine, Red October and we get to see Alex Baldwin (I think it was Alex...I always get the Baldwin brothers mixed up) swashbuckling it to save the day.

So Mariah asks what would get my ship burning?? Now imagine my face as white as a sheet and eyes as big as saucers for that's about what I looked like throughout the entire hour. So she prompts me by offering suggestions such as writing a letter to my office/friends/family stating my intentions of 'going all in'? I shake my head and agree that I could probably do that but I'm thinking I'd prefer not to. She then says, "then that's not it!" It's an odd thought that I'm supposed to come up with something that I would never do in a million years.

There was a writer and videographer that works for them that were waiting to talk and to see if I would be a good video candidate. Let me tell you a little something about myself...I have never wanted to be an actor...never wanted to be the diva belting out on stage to the sounds of my cheering fans. I'm the stage manager. I looked at her in horror and said I don't think I can do that and I start to cry! CRY!...geeza louisa! She then said that's your burning ship...

Meeting Mariah

So I met Mariah, Master Trainer of the Revelation Fit program. On our first phone call I wasn't so sure about her. She wanted me to pick a time and place for us to meet to talk over the program. I was fine with Monday morning but didn't care much after that. She asked me three times to be specific. I wasn't loving her tone and when she said I'm not going to ask again I thought, "it seemed a bit early to be badassing it but what do I know?"

We met and she brought it up which I was really thankful for. For after the phone call, I asked a couple people what they thought of the interaction and some said, "sounds like a bitch" and others said to just check it out. I wasn't going to hold a grudge because I figured if I couldn't trust her on something so small that when it came time to the big stuff I wouldn't have a strong foundation with her. Her explanation was that people who are really fat lack in their power and control wheel when they have more control than they realize. She was trying to allow me the control over the situation and I kept trying to give my control back to her. I liked the explanation a whole lot better than if she was trying to show dominance on the first phone call. I'm a good listener but sometimes a phone call is just a phone call.

What Do You Think?

http://www.revelationfit.com/company/programs

I'm thinking about it, well...more praying about it.

It's up to God if the money is going to be there though so I'm waiting to see...

Happy November!

Hi! Hi!

I'm so excited because I've been really digging my job which makes so happy because I was in the dumps being unemployed! Weird what a job does for my self-esteem! I actually made my own money in October! I feel proud about that.

Onto Weight Stuff-
I am really heavy. laughing...is that enough to say?

I'm grateful that I fit into one pair of jeans that I like. Even if they are a size 24. Sometimes just finding a piece of clothing that fits and is cute is almost like finding world peace.